The universe has its ways

The universe has its ways
Of making sure
That happiness cannot last
Of making sure
That pain and hurt survive

The universe has its ways
Of making you feel
So out of control
Of making you feel
So cold and alone

The universe has its ways
Of making you
Give up your fight
Of making you
Give up your dreams

The universe has its ways

Lies make it better

So the truth has come out
I had to hear it second hand
Like the paper a day out of print
Because you haven't talked
For seven days now
My suspicions confirmed
Feels like a stab in the chest
I never wanted this pain
But now I know who you are
So I cut the ties
No social media links
Messages are gone
I hope that writing
These things down
Will help to tame the fires
Of sadness and rage
Apologies for the words I said
But no such courtesy from you
You cling to the untruths
And contradict things
Said in the past

No future

I fell hard and fast
Just like every time before
The sleeve of my shirt bloodied
From where my heart has sat
Thought it would be different
This time full of hope
Promise of future
It didn't turn out that way
My veins are full of acid
Coursing through and burning
All that they touch
How many times can I die
How many times can I die
How much more can I take
How much more can I take
Another struggle
After the whistle has blown
No reason to explain
Once broken
The heart is like a vase
It can be repaired
But is twice as fragile
I would have done
Anything for you
Now I won't do
Anything for myself

The beginning of heart break

I traveled 174 miles away
and felt so far from you
The missing words make it feel more
I come 174 miles back
But the distance between us
Still feels the same
Now I see you and recognise that look
The same one you give
To a man you despise
I try to talk
Your answer is just one word
I know you well enough
To understand the tone
I think back to everything I said
To things I may have done
But can't come up with a reason
To why you no longer care
Why you don't want to talk
Your having fun with another man
It burns me from the inside
Destroying my happiness
A day goes by with nothing
I finally pluck up some courage
To ask what went wrong
You tell me nothing
You just can't handle it right now
I offer to give you space
I just want to be alone Is the reply
An answer is closure I don't want
An end to 2 months
Of smiles and fun